Sunday, December 31, 2006
its new years eve now . need to start afresh . too many mistakes . just hope god will forgive me .
argh . he is sleeping now . so sian . i guess im going to sleep soon before i get scold for not calling =( . haha . i will call you okay . stop suaning me . haha . okay . i guess i'll sleep now . tmr we be fun right ? haha . okay .
boy i won't runaway (: , love you !
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so want to give you
It’s only a heartbeat away
When I need love
I hold out my hands
And I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night & day
Miles & miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can’t take the place of your smile
But you know I won’t be travellin’ forever
It’s cold out
But hold out
And do like I do
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I’m with you
And all that I so want to give you babe
It’s only a heartbeat away
It’s not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that’s a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won’t be travellin’ a life time
It’s cold out
But hold out
And do like I do…
Oh I need you….
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 2:28 AM
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
worst christmas . argh fuck this .
thanks guys for the presents (: love you all .
fuck i regretted .
my hp
my hands bleeding
hangover
i just feel like vomit
argh . drunk and wasted . help me please =( .
and that fucking asshole who stole my handphone , you watch out . arghh shit .
im sorry boy . mm . i wont drink anymore . please dont drink too . i dont want you to get hurt , please . i couldn't bear hearing you vomitting on the phone without me being there by your side . im sorry . dont fight already . i miss you . i dont think i can talk to you so soon . until i get my line back .
anyway . people wanna contact me call my house(ask me on msn) or my bro number . 97930346 . but state your name first please . thank you .
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 10:30 PM
Thursday, December 21, 2006
suppose to go karina's house today but as usual it always gets cancelled it the end . why can't people be reliable . argh. its so irritating . (ju im not blaming you , its general)
you always said friends come first , but i dont think you mean what you say , do you ? if i asked you out and he/she asked you the next minute , i can garantee you , you would go with him/her. its irritating how you always want things to go your way .
back to my day , was boring . bro was out so didnt do much painting . drive with mummy . was funny . haha .
what happened to our promise ? i always thought we would stick by each other through thick and thin ? i guess it was all empty promises .
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 11:57 PM
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
it has been raining and raining . my room's flooded . not exactly flooded but its leaking like crazy . grr .and me and my brother are painting my room . wrong time to leak lah . cant even paint . so irritating . how i wish , rain rain come again another day ? maybe next year ?
so all my furniture is out lah . my bed is in my mum's room and the rest is outside . so my computer is outside my room . i look like a begger with no house then i carry my furniture whereever i go !
i think the painting will take 1 week including shiftin all the furniture back . but that my brother will do , don't need to worry . hope my room will turn out nice , though its not that bad now even though we are barely even halfway done .
i miss going out . i hope my room is done faster so i can go out ! YAY ! hehe . my room is filled with one year supply of newspaper . so imagine . haha .
i just wished i could help you =(
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 9:59 PM
Saturday, December 16, 2006
boy .
I know you didn't mean to lie to me . I forgive you . I can't promise you to smile . Im sorry . but don't be sad please , don't cry . Seeing you like this hurts me too. We'll go through this together, okay? I still trust you , I still believe in you.
everything will be like before right ?
i love you
Who's out there
Who's gonna save us
Before we all fall through the cracks in the pavement
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 2:38 PM
Thursday, December 14, 2006
IM BOREDDD NOW.
i slept alot today ! haha . i woke up at like 3 plus 4 . haha . i feel so pig . haha . and i dreamt that i went down and watched tv with my bro and he was eating as usual . so i didnt know it was a dream . so i didnt wake up . hahaha .
but i slept at six plus . haha . xinyi: dont scold me (:
i dont have green nails anymore . hehe .
im soo bored bored boreddd .
yay . GAYBOY IS ONLINE NOW .. hoho .
i think the name gayboy reminds me as a superhero ((: gayboy is cute (:
okay . dont think im going to sleep early today . too much sleep . but i need to be at bugis at 1 . ohnoo . so early lah . hope i can get up . morning call anyone ??
i'll go find something to do now . anyone free? call me . im dying of boredem . =(
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 10:30 PM
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
arghhh . i woke up freaking early today ! at like 8 plus . but obviously i slept again (: heee . slept till 11 . waiting for lim's call . i thought she was still sleeping . so i didnt bother to get ready first . then suddenly at 12 plus she called me , she was ready and i hadnt even bathed yet ? haha .
parkway . sorry i was late . i think you were too early . haha . walked around . shopping for charmain that is . haha . then met juliana and melissa at mph . haha . so coincidence . melissa is mute lah and PAIKA (:
headed to marina with lim . then bought for my bro some stuff . then charm went to meet jiayu . didnt do much there . kinda boring actually .. took mrt home . bro dont want to pick me up =( yay . now my ezlink got money ! hehe .
tanah merah . waited for bus so long . met rachel tay at the bus stop . its like ages since i saw her ? hehe . saw sharmaine too . but she was in the bus . then got on the bus i saw liang . haha . i was thinking why he look so familar .
sad lah he didnt drive his car or else he will tompang me =( haha . he was heading to meet my bro . haha . my bro didnt want to pick him up . haha . selfish bugger . so had company in the bus too . yay .
is this love for real ?
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 10:19 PM
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
okay . so woke up by mum's nagging again . this time she wasnt nagging at me but my brother . 11am nag nag nag. so irritating lah . for like 20 minutes she was persistantly nagging . she kept asking my brother to get out of the house and not come back .
i think parents are stupid . supposing my brother really got out of the house and i doesnt come back .she would be up whole night wanting him to come back . which doesnt make any sense actually .
oh yea . i wasnt actually there .but i was eve dropping on the situation . so i couldnt take it anymore , i went over to my brother's room . shouted at my mum . if he went , don't you dare ask him to come back . so she kept quite. i know her too well . and at last the nagging stopped (: thanks to yours truly (: hehe
i slept at 4 or 5 last night so i had to sleep more . haha . so i went back to sleep at 2 . hehe . woke up . watched tv with haider . haha . dragon ball . haha .
dinner then driving with family . weeeheee. so my brother practiced driving and parking . this time it was better . not bad actually . his parking improved . i tried driving too . so scary lah . i think i made everyone's heart beat . haha . farhan also tried . he was better than me . haha . i cant turn . haha . scaryyyy ! but i want to try again ! YAY!
patrick bought me stuff from japan ! YAY ! and ian didnt . asshole !
its really good hear your voice saying my name , it sounds so sweet .
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 12:19 AM
Monday, December 11, 2006
so ronin concert at karina's place .
don't think it went well . at least i expected it to be better . so after karina's place then went to marina square with charm , melanie and junita (: macs for dinner . i dont like macs actually . lol .
visit them work awhile . ralvin and nicki came . long time no see ? haha . taiti with mel and jun outside marina (: yay . fun fun . i won .yippeeeeee . then perfume at sasa . sorry sasa people i think all your testers need to be replaced (:
home at 8 plus . bought calamanci sorbet . can taste the lime seeds lah . tsk . disgusting lah . haha . sorry mel and jub you are both sticky sticky . though i don't know what i did . im sorry .
36 them 43 home . haha .
wow .now both my brothers have friend's over . there are like guy and guy everywhere ! urgh . so irritating lah . want to watch tv also cannot . grr . feel like siaming (?) them . hehe .
okay . so i think i need to give my fathers cake menu .
mm . i'll just name the nice ones okay ?
some chocolate pudding . it taste like heaven . nice !
stawberry tarts ! my favourite
chocolate cake .
marble cake
fruit cake . got alcohol . i like !
orange cake
suji cake
almond cherry cake
chocolate brownies . dads speciallity (:
interested anyone ?
okay . there are many more. but im lazy to name . too many to remember (; sorry
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 11:16 PM
Sunday, December 10, 2006
why can't everything be like the past ? why can't my mum just appreciate what my father has done for her ? why can't she care for him? why must all she think about envolve money ? why why why !!!
arghhhhhhh . i don't like seeing my dad like this . i hate seeing him sad . he is always happy and willing to do everything . i just wished i could help =( . but how . i can't even work to support anyone . i just wish my mum would love him , like he does .
please don't insult him anymore . he has never insulted you . but look at how you do . people do have feelings . he made a mistake , stop blaming him every single day . but look at you , mum , are you even true to dad ? ha. hard to answer ?
daddy one day . one day , everything will be fine . i promise . i love you
no more fights and quarrels please ? i can't take it anymore . i just feel like giving up .
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 10:23 PM
Saturday, December 09, 2006
YAY !shoppingggggg ((:
mum woke me up by sitting on me . so heavy lah . she think she very light hah ! so got dressed and went to orchard ((: yay . shopping . long time no shopping . haha . so i spend like $162 ? so next month no pocket money . sad huh ?
clothes also must buy myself =( grrr . so bought a green and brown top ((: hehe . bought for my brother black longsleves shirt . haha . nice ((: so im like totally broke now . i just have some for my basic needs . thats all =( .
so . i'll just pray money drop from the sky or money starts to grow on trees ((:
anyway , anyone want to order cakes ? please please please (: call me or tell me on msn . if you dont have either then i guess add me on msn
arshu_23@hotmail.com
YAY . I'LL LOVE YOU IF YOU ORDER ((: be kind lah !
oh yea. so get back to my day . went to grandma's house after that . all my cousins ar overseas studying lah or in singapore studying(including my brother) . no more nice cousins . only left hanna and sofia =( nvm the are nice too .
arghhh . so my mum told me my uncle got a new car . and like wth lah . i fucking hate my uncle lah . he sucks like hell . urghhhhhh . bloody bastard . he tells my family the company got no money but instead he takes everything. bloody hell . my family is like stuggling like hell ? my father is bankrupt and he can take company's money and buy a new car . wtf lah . oh if you're wondering . its a family business . everything SHOULD be share equally ! but my fucking uncle takes care of the finance . arghh. shit him man .
i would marry the person who kills him . haha . he is a bloody bastard . he is trying to take over my house ? wtf lah . you're own family also want to take money from us . arghhhhh . i just wish i can finish my studies soon so i can get a new job so fight with his fucking loser kids . who just action . ha . hari raya you wear shorts and tshirt ? you think what . you angmoh arh ! stupid ! use your brain lah . then the children are some stuck up spoil bratts. who will go . oh mummy oh daddy . argh. fuck them man . someor action got american excent .
my cousin from america suan her say , i've lived in america since 7 and i dont even speak like her . what a poser . haha . omg . someone kill my uncle and maybe his whole family . i tell you i wont even shed a tear . maybe tears of joy ? or tears of sympathy ! yeah ! fuck him and his family . let them burn in hell ! yeah ! rot in hell biatch !
OKAY . sorry for the vulgar post . but it felt good . now dont you all wanna gang up to kill him and his family ? yeah , i hate him to the core ! dont you ?
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 4:24 AM
Friday, December 08, 2006
yay . karina house (((((:
went to her house at about 3plus . played bluff/bullshit(karina's vulgar way of saying it) then taiti with karina and alicia ((: YAY . then got bored of it . so we decided to play twister (((: yay ! I LIKE !
played with karina , alicia , cat , korrey and karina's mum . it was damn funny i tell you . espcially karina's mum . she was leaning of everyone till they fell haha . korrey took some embarassing photos of everyone . haha .
at 6 went to parkway with karina , alicia and cat . then met nicole . karina bought her stuff . then we ate dinner at kfc . went to some other place of that at telok kurau lorong n . then walked to karina's house . then took bus home (:
twister with mum and haider . haha . its damn funny . my bro sucks at it lah . he cant twist for nuts ? what a failure . hoho .
i love you (:
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 11:51 PM
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
im tireddddd now .
slept late last night , smsing , i smsed like for 2 hours continuously . luckily only smsing one person or my bill's gonna burst . slept at 4 plus . sorry leo didnt reply you . fell asleep . morning woke up . so early lah . but mum was like nagging and nagging .
wake leo up . stupid pig . sleep so much ! haha . talked to him awhile then he went chalet (: . maybe he can see peilin there ?
watched dvd ,prime with mum and haider . haider is irritating lah . talk to loud . tsk tsk ! . 5 plus got ready went to tanah merah to meet charm . wait for 30 minutes for her ! so long lah . tsk ! went to bugis . i think bugis is damn boring lah . i think bugis people are damn rude lah (no offence to my friends) everybody was like giving a fucked up attitude .haha . oh well . i don't go bugis often so who cares . i think more and more ahlians wannabee's are going there ? (oh no don't bash me up)
so off to teenage cafe . i want my tuna salad lah =( noo moreeeee ! boohoo . that makes me hate bugis more lah . grrr . so jiayu came to meet us . sotong lah she . haha . bought chicken from downstairs . haha .
then walked around looking for bags . i still think i wanna go malaysia to get my bag so not many will have the same one as me . anyone wanna go malaysia shopping with me ? or maybe i'll just go with my mum (:
walked to 48 bus stop . so scary . so many banglas . im scared =(
i glad you still remember me ,
or least thought of me ,
you may not be the best boyfriend
but you are certainly a great friend (:
but , the message just brought me to the past memories
maybe i just can't accept the fact that you've moved on
enjoy your holiday (: take care
you seem so much happier with me , or maybe thats just the way i want it to be
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 1:29 AM
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
fun day ((:
out with melanie today (: . haven't gone out with her for a long time ((: . went to marina square . was suppose to go vivocity but had second thoughts as it was too far . haha . soo . off to marina (: shopppinngggg ! (but didnt buy anything) , visit lim and amelia . then shopppinngggg again (: both eyed on some clothes . i dont think i can spend my money or else i wont have any money for the rest of the month . but we didnt shop much . next time k mel?
sooo . off to suntec (: guess what we ate ? hehe .
SUSHI ! YUM YUM . haha .
unagi ! SUSHI = LOVE (:
our mission for buffet : 30 coloured plates . altogether
MISSION FAILED -
haha . only manage 20 plates=(
such failures =(
i'll try again next time . dont eat the night before . anyone care to join ??
after suntec off to cine . it was raining . i told melanie . my predictions are right ((: who's the smart one now huh ! haha . okay . so it was raining . i had a jacket to cover . but melanie has nothing lah . so i was kind to lend her my jacket . and i had nothing ? so cold you know .
because i said i was cold . we made 2 new friends ? haha
long story lazy to write about it . haha .
mm . imagine two beng guys carrying a big bag , i mean HUGE . as in can fit a person . they were carrying it around and the bags are black someor . damn funny making fun of them . they look like terrorist . haha .
so the terrorists(fake) asked us sit with them . okay so we talk talk . played cards . haha . then suddenly the manager came to us and told us we cant play .
manager: excuse me , you are not allowed to play cards here
ahbeng : budden we play very long already leh
manager: (thinking what to reply) but but i didnt see here .
ahbeng : now then ask . almost finish our game already then disturb us .
manager : nothing to say . haha (kena bang !)
aftr cine decided to go to esplanade . haha . we find the place so long in the end dont need to meet terrorists already . haha . then went to find charmain at marina . food court with xinyi (: then food court with lim and her ice kacang . haha .laugh to much , she cnt eat . mum called then pangseh her . sorry !
off to arab street with haider , dad and mum . was full so didnt have anything . home (: yay . tv with haider . tsk he is irritating i tell you .
i guess i miss you too
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 12:28 AM
Sunday, December 03, 2006
early morning woke up =(
8am =( boohoo . i slept at like 5?got ready for work . then waited for bus 14 to go to tanah merah mrt for like 40 mins ? i can reach orchard by that time lah ! grrr .
in the mrt . next to me was a old man . omg . i cant stand him . he smells like vomit . the moment he sat next to me i almost vomited . the vomit went to my throat . im not being drama or anything . really . he fucking sticks . omg . he sucks . someone should introduce him perfume ? maybe shampoo
walked to forum . its like so ulu lah . far far . okay lah . not that far . toys r us . finding that marcus person. i dont know how he look like how to find lah . haha . but in the end he found me . haha . sound like blind date right . no lah . he is my boss ? no i think he is a little too young to be a boss . i have no idea who he is lah .
so we set up the table and everything . talked to marcus . haha . we talked about studies and stuff . i thought he was like 20 or 19 like that . but he is only 17 . and i think he is gay =x . no offence . but i think so . he is abit girly . haha . sooo . peilin . now i found a gay (; haha . i thought all gays are handsome . but i dont think marcus is . ha . he changed my perspective of gays =(
okay . so worked like super long lah . then the bigshot from hongkong suppose to come between 3 to 5 but he came at 6 plus nearing 7 ? you think you very big arh . make me wait so long . tsk . so i was like a loner . but my loves kept me occupied with flooding smses (:
i'll thank those people later (:
so when the bigshot arrived . no children were there . obviously lah . he chase them all away (:
oh yea . its damn funny how parents give all kinds of excuses so they do not need to buy them toys . if they dont want to buy then why bother coming to toy'r'us ? (singapore's greatest toystore) and it's damn cute how the small little kiddos will beg and cry just to get those toys . haha . i guess we all have been there , done that .
so 7 plus i had an hour break . YAY . instead of dinner . i went window shopping ? haha . havent gone shopping for a long time , couldnt resist . but didnt have anyone's opinion . haha .
8 plus packed everything (: 9 signed out . then took 36 then 43 home (:
okay . thanks to charmain , xinyi , leo , melvin , marcus(boss) and few others . but their smses were not entertaining me . haha .
YAY . AT LAST .
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 1:11 AM
Friday, December 01, 2006
boring boring day .
actually , it wasnt so bad . haha . pink panther with mummy and haider ((: then devils wear prada with mummy . i think pink panther was a better movie . i better not tell haider this or he will give me that i told you so face !
marina with xinyi (: . xinyi want to do a stupid thing . haha . and i played along ? haha . i was too bored to bother about the 4cents i wasted . (charmain is m1 so 2cents per sms only) ((: . this is what we did
xinyi and i smsed charmain . this is how it went
xinyi : hello
me : where
xinyi : are
me : you
get it ? its retarded dont blame me . it was xinyi's brilliant idea ((:
so marina square to find charmain , jiayu and amelia . talk talk . taiti with xinyi . traffic jam is like making my brain burst . so fustrating . about 10 plus headed home . bus 10 home with xinyi and charm (:
im chatting with ian now . and i think this is damn funny
-=¤!!! ïÃn !!!¤=- (+44) says:
dun bully miie worx
and ian stop bullying max lah . he so poorthing .
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 1:24 AM
okay . so MINAH DAY TODAY ((:
only for me that is . haha . tried to dress up like minah . i can make it okay . bung maybe cannot . but minah can okay ! haha . but i look like shit lah . not going to wear that for a long time from now .
soo . waited for everyone to come my house instead after waiting for like 2 hours they asked me to head down to nicole's house . i did . brought her mahjong tiles along . its like freaking heavy i tell you .
nicole's house . movie time ((: . john tucker must die ! yeah . nice show and american pie ? i think jiayu is so engrossed in the movie lah . tsk tsk . she wants to see the mother(not his own mother) have sex with the flitch (is it ?) forgot . haha .
after that headed to marina square visit xinyi , peilin and amelia . taiti with charm and peilin . haha . yay . i want to play again ! badminton too ? mahjong also ! soon please ?
about 10 ate macs . first meal of the day . walked to suntec bus stop . bus 10 home with xinyi and charm ((: jiayu and charm exchanged mp3's . and jiayu is so smart , her mp3 no battery le . haha . jiayu i like your attitude (: i was kind enough to lend charmain my hp (:
yay . done for today . tmr ? what am i doing . im becoming more and more forgetfull oh no .
and and . my bro fixed my speakers . YAY I LOVE HIM . weeeee . its nice now . its hanging on the wall . hohoho . looks cool . all i need to do now is change my room colour and get a new light . haha . i want to paint my room maroon . yeah . and i need a light desperately . mummy buy me one ? or maybe a christmas present from someone ? haha .
You seemed so much happier with me, Or maybe that's just the way I wanted it to be.
LOVES ;
the memories have shattered 12:52 AM
